i have chosen this path that i am now taking... i have been given an opportunity to change directions.. and yet i chose the same road that will lead me to my so called "happiness". this is my decision. and i will show my conviction to what i wanted.. i may be an inconvenience to him, an inconvenience to his life, but can you blame me for wanting what is already possessed by others? i know you can. go ahead and point your finger at me, and say that i am definitely an inconvenience. well, i love being one, i love the feeling of realizing how great his effort is for me to remain his own inconvenience. only a few people will understand me, those who are going through the same phase as i am, those you cant let go of someone who had been lost in their lives for a long time. i know it doesn't make any sense, i know it's a sin. yet this is the greatest sin i have ever done in my life...
i know there's no assurance that he will love, no proof that he will need me in the end. but, for as long as he wants me right here where i am, then i guess i'll just have to take a chance and see where this leads me. if there's one thing i know is true, that is my undying love for him,, he may not love me at all, he might just be playing me for a fool, but as i said, i'll take my chance.
may be someday he wont need me as an inconvenience anymore, but someone whom he will love the way he's been loving her faithfully...
-just a wishful thinking.. *sigh*
