Que Sera Sera

Every time I think about us, I can't help but also think, how long are we going to last? No matter how much I want to keep you with me, I know that I can't. If we think about it, I don't really own you, which means I can't force you to stay with me forever. I know you're not scared of losing me, I am one of those few people that you can live without. I am not the one you would want to stay with you. We are good together, so long as nobody else knows, but once the secret's out, well, I am good as gone. I don't mind being the loosed string, the one you can cut off once the tides get rough. My situation is understandable, I know my place, I know my limits. Sometimes, I forget the reality, especially when you're with me, I act as though I'm the only one for you, but then reality checks back in, tapping me in the back, reminding me to back off from you just a little bit. But I can't back off, I can't will myself not to love you, I can't force my heart to feel otherwise. I think it is too late for that. I have allowed myself to love you completely. Yes, it's hard, it's complicated, but what can I do? Should I give you up? I really don't think I can, even if I want to.

I know time will come that you would have to give me up, that you would have to let go. I get teary-eyed just by the thought of losing you, but sacrifices are made in order to make your loved ones happy, and if letting you go is the only solution, then I won't have to think twice. I know that I'm not part of your options. Or maybe I am, but I know you will never choose me. You will never choose to be with me. I keep repeating this to myself so when the time comes, it won't hurt so much.

I wonder what will happen once you leave..I've been preparing for that moment ever since I chose to love you. I've been dreading the moment you would have to finally cut the cord, and let me go. It hurts just thinking about it, but I have to prepare my heart for this, there's no other way. I know you will never be with me forever. I just know it. But it's okay. I really don't mind, and even if I do, it's not like I have a choice. I love you this much, even if it means hurting myself twice as much.

This is my resolution: I love you, and I will keep on loving you until the day you would have to let me go. For now, what's important is that I love you, it's the only thing I am sure of, I maybe uncertain about our future, but I never really doubted how I feel. So for now, I love you, and I love 'us'.  Que Sera Sera...

I Will Always Stay In Love With You...

It was truly amazing how everything worked out for us. Back then, there was just me and there was just you. We are two different people, existing on the same universe, on the same space; possibly breathing the same air, we were just acquaintances, not even close to being friends. We barely recognize each other. We barely speak, or meet eyes. We have lived this way for months... And now here we are. Here is 'us'; together.

I remember the first time I liked you, I was merely looking at what I see on the outside; those eyes, your smile, your laugh, your smell, oh, how I love your smell. Every movement you make is intoxicating, i was mildly addicted.just mildly. Back then, I never really wanted you that badly. I knew then that you have everything going for you, you have an almost perfect life. My goal was to be friends with you, or not to be friends, I never really had any clear intentions towards you, because I never really needed you. To me, you're just someone I admire. and that's it..Funny how things change through time...

Look where time has taken me..I am in this unknown place, an untouched premise. Is this my heart? My heart is calling out to you..and you actually looked back. You recognized how I feel for you. You accepted everything about me..You..wanted me. And i wanted you so much I can't seem to stop wanting you, and I never wanted to stop.

How did you ever fall for me? Why are you with me? Are you for real? Am i dreaming? Questions...thousands of them, and they are all left unanswered. And yet I don't need answers. I only need you. And I need 'us'.


I've had mixed emotions for months, I'm confused yet I know what I want. But I'm afraid to get what I want. I wanted you.I've never wanted anybody else. But still I was afraid to have you, coz I might lose you, and lose my heart altogether. Then you told me to take a leap of faith, to believe in you, and believe in 'us'.. and now I am a believer.

I was afraid of everything else, but I was never afraid to love you. It's the only thing I am good at, loving you.
And I will keep on loving you for as long as you allow me to.

I know that everything seems complicated, especially for you; and I truly understand. I'm not asking you for anything, I'm not expecting you to do anything for me. Just let me love you, and that is enough for me. I have accepted everything about you, the moment I have decided to love you. I am here to understand and not to demand, because I don't want to be an inconvenience to you.

I don't know who to thank most, You or God. Well. I thank God for giving me someone like you. And I thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life. I thank you for letting me love you. And I am prepared to love you forever.

I never knew that dreams or wishes actually come true, but they really do, coz you are my dream come true. I am lucky to have you, no, I am BLESSED to have you..and now there's nothing more I want but to keep on loving you. Being loved by you is just a consolation, loving you is the Ultimate Price.

I am never really afraid of losing you, only God knows how far we will go. But I am not afraid. I will love you til you allow me to and until God allows me to. And if I ever lose you one day, I will never regret loving you. But I can't lose you for now. Nope. No way.. For now, you're stuck with me.

Thank you, my love for coming into my life just when I needed you most. Thank you for giving me all the time that you can spare for me, and thank you for making me happy. You are my happiness. You are my love.
Thank you for being my friend, my brother, my twin. I have finally found my soulmate, my true love.

I LOVE YOU..