whenever i see a photo of you smiling, and having fun, instead of being happy for you, i feel sad. knowing that even without me, you are still happy. i wish i was more like you. carefree,no worries of yesterday, just happy.
and every photo of your smile, it hurts me so much because i know you can go on with your life even without.
i really thought that you would want to continue what we have, but i realized, you dont want me to be a part of your life anymore. you dont want be to be an inconvenience anymore. you led me to believe that we can work things out, that we can still communicate or even see each other. but they're just empty words, empty promises.
i can really feel that you are happy, with your life, with your girl, with your work. and i know that i dont have a place in your life anymore. sometimes i want to regret having to meet you again. i was fine when you were not a part of me, and now, i am back to wanting you. i am back to this place i call my Ultimate Pain.
i dont know what kind of power you have over me. i dont know what you have that makes me want to hold on to your memories. all i know is that i am stuck. i wish you gave me a proper closure. a one-liner saying that you dont want me anymore. i wish you'd just stop getting my hopes up. i wish you'd just stop pretending that you still care. because i know you dont. but i really wish you could say that to me. i wish you could make me realize that i dont really need you.
i wanna hate you, but i cant. coz deep inside, i know i still love you.......................................................
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