i miss you..

i wish there are better words to let you know how i truly feel. i want to be angry at you, i want to say things that can make you angry.and yet, all i can say right now is I MISS YOU.

last night, i had a dream that i was with you. we were actually together, in the same bed, lying so peacefully and contentedly. i can honestly say that you were happy to be with me. but that was only a dream. if only i didn't have to wake up.

i remember those nights that we shared; when you'd put your arms around me, it's like you're scared of losing me while you're sleeping..but you know,i was more scared, because i know, when the morning comes, everything will be over. we both know that it has to end, i just can't convince myself to accept that.

i remember the way you held my hand, its like you were dreaming. its like, you cant believe that i was actually there beside you. i so remember you're reaction. you were tensed, but i saw you smiling too. oh, i just miss your smile, its like they always mean something, its like  you were really happy; but only that time.

i remember the way you hugged me.so tight and so real. i can feel your heart beating.its like you were nervous to be with me.


i remember a lot of things that we shared. but i also remembered that i can't be with you. as much as i would want to, i remember that we can't be together. i remember the pain that it has caused me.

somehow, i just want to remember how to forget about you. that's the only thing i seem to forget. can you help me remember how to forget about you??