i am writing this to make a simple request. i know i have asked a lot of things from you, but right now, all i really wanted is a brand new heart. a heart that is stronger, a heart that can withstand all the pain and hurting and all the cruelty of the world. most especially, i want a heart without HIM in it.
Lord, if you cant give me a new heart, can you please just help me forget? help me forget this person who continues to break my heart. help me forget him and all the things we did. i am not asking for too much, i just want him out of my life, but right now, i cant do it alone, so i am asking for your help.
i don't want to question you on why things happened. i know i could have avoided them so as not to get hurt. i chose this path and now i am suffering, but please Lord, lead me back to the right path, lead me to the path where i will never find him again. no matter how painful it would be for me to forget him; i just want to start living my life without him, without any thoughts of him.
I know you can help me, and i promise you, i'll try to help myself as well. can you give me as sign that it is really not meant to be? i know i am being stubborn because you've been giving me signs before, but my heart cant really move on. my mind is so tired of thinking of him, yet my heart never gets tired of getting hurt. that is why i am asking you for a better heart.
Lord, i feel so lost everyday. i don't know why i feel this way. i feel like he's the only one who can make me happy, but i know that it's not true. i made him the center of my happiness and now i am suffering because of him. i really don't know why i love him so much, after everything he did to me. there are reasons, right? or am i just being stupid?
Lord, help me forget. get him out of my heart before i fall apart. that is only my request and hopefully things will be better for me...
thank you Lord..
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