thank you so much..

finally, you did something right. thank you so much form the bottom of my heart for giving a reason to finally let go. somehow i was right, i should see you in person for the last time, so that i can realize that i don't need someone like you.

what you did to me today was the worst thing you ever did to me. if you really care about me, or what i feel, you will never do that. what you did is unforgivable. you hurt me so much, i thought that everything is just for fun, that we'll be doing something that both of us wanted, but then, you wanted to do something to me that would hurt me, and you succeeded because you did it without my permission, without me having any knowledge of what you just did. you thought that whatever you do to me is just fine, that i'll just go along with you because i love you, well not anymore, i hope you know that what you did made me realize how unworthy you are of my respect and love and loyalty.

whatever that has happened today, i want to thank you. you opened my eyes to the reality that you really don't love nor respect. you only see me as an experimentation. you only see me as a substitute for your body itch. maybe for awhile i went along with that, i let things happen because i wanted them all, and because at the back of my mind, i'm doing it because i love you, but now, thank you for making me feel so small and so unworthy. now i realized that you are not worthy either.

i hope you don't do that to your girl. never make her feel, the way you made me feel. nobody ever deserves what you did. maybe others do that kind of stuff, but they are aware. i wasn't aware, and even if i am, you should have been so gentle about it. but you we're so inconsiderate, so unmanly. and i am beginning to hate, because you made me feel so cheap. and somehow i let you do that to me. i was so f**ing blind to even realize that you don't really care. i am so hurt.yet i cant bring myself to tears, because you are unworthy of my tears.


hopefully someday everything will change, i hope you will change. i know it will be easy for me to let go of you, finally. thanks for the reality check. thanks for making me feel so cheap. i could have loved you forever, i know i could. but now, i wont. maybe someday i'll try again, someday when you know my worth..


thank you....A**hole...