i try...

Games, changes and fears 
When will they go from here 
When will they stop 
I believe that fate has brought us here 
And we should be together 
But we're not 
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you 
I'll keep it cool but I'm fiendin. 

I try to say goodbye and I choke 
I try to walk away and I stumble 
Though I try to hide it it's clear 
My world crumbles when you are not near 
Goodbye and I choke 
I try to walk away and I stumble 
Though I try to hide it, it's clear 
My world crumbles when you are not near 

I may appear to be free 
But I'm just a prisoner of your love 
I may seem alright and smile when you leave 
But my smiles are just a front 
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you 
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin. 

I try to say goodbye and I choke 
I try to walk away and I stumble 
Though I try to hide it it's clear 
My world crumbles when you are not near 

Here is my confession 
May I be your possesion 
Boy I need your touch 
Your love kisses and such 
With all my might I try 
But this I can't deny 
I play it off but im dreamin of you 
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin 
I try to say good bye and I choke 
I try to walk away and I stumble 
Though I try to hide it it's clear 
My world crumbles when you are not near 








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this song is clearly what my heart feels, right at this moment. no matter how i try to say goodbye to him, no matter how many times i try to walk away from, i always find myself going back. it's insane, this habit that i have.  i get crazy just thinking about it. i dont know what kind of spell u got me under, but im telling u, it's too strong. evryday i find myself get weaker and weaker, esp when i havent heard from u at all.. im starting to wonder, when will you need me again? im starting to hate you, but again, i wonder, do i even have to guts to hate someone i love?


i am praying that one of these days, you will remember me, everything that we did together.. everything that i did for you. i am willing to do it all again, just to make you happy, because you're happiness means so much, esp when you are happy with me. i miss you..so much, it hurts...and you're the only cure..