..everyday is a living struggle. sometimes i dont know how long i can keep up. im feeling so much pain, loneliness, heartache and disappointment. everynight, i go to sleep with a heavy heart, knowing that the next day will give me the same hurtful feelings.
i know i will never be happy if i keep on waiting for him look my way. i know he cant be with me.. maybe in another universe, or in another lifetime. i dont know when. all i know is i want to be with him, but it is impossible. we can never be. the idea of us together is improbable, it's out of the question, a far-fetched idea, a seemingly simple request, yet unachievable. No, it is not possible, yet here i am,,waiting. for what? for his free times that he can spend with me, those times that he is not with his girlfriend. those times when he can be with me and me only. i love those moments with him, no matter how seldom they are, no matter how stolen they are. i cherish those times him, because i know one day, it will all be over.
i dont know til when i can keep this stupidity. i dont even know if i want this to end. i just miss those days when i use to call him MINE, and know that he is really MINE. but now, his not mine, not anymore.
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